A Call From the Sheriff’s Office: Navigating Uncertainty in My Son’s Recovery

When Unexpected Calls Shake Your Routine

Yesterday, while doing my morning workout at the gym, I received a call I wasn’t prepared for. It was Deputy O’Hara from the Orange Valley Sheriff’s Office asking about my son, Hawk. The call caught me off guard. Was it a friend trying to locate him? Or was it someone related to his past struggles? I had to confirm that Hawk was in rehab. The deputy wanted more details. He mentioned it was about some “stuff” connected to an arrest. It was an unsettling start to a day full of important legal and personal conversations.


The Sheriff’s Visit: What It Really Meant

Later that day, it became clear the sheriff was in our neighborhood—not for a neighbor, but for Hawk. A neighbor works from home. They spotted the sheriff’s office parked outside and kindly messaged me. They wanted to check if all was well with our neighbor, Frank. I explained the visit was related to Hawk and that he no longer lives with us. When I asked if he could pray for our family, he responded with kindness and understanding. This simple exchange reminded me how much community support means during tough times.

A concerned, but friendly message from our neighbor during the visit from the sheriff’s office.


Thanks to Hawk’s dedicated lawyer, Ophelia, we learned more about the ongoing legal process. Ophelia explained that recalling or quashing Hawk’s warrant could happen quickly. She mentioned that moving his case to adult court might actually be beneficial. They are working hard to protect his rights. His participation in rehab is viewed positively in potential sentencing or plea discussions. Hawk is in residential rehab until mid-November. He’s found a sober living facility. He is making strides toward rebuilding his life.

A lawyer talking to her young client about the status of his case.

Numb, Not Ashamed: Finding Strength in Support

There are moments when I think I should feel more embarrassed or ashamed about Hawk’s situation. But instead, I find myself numb. This may be from the weight of this whole experience. It could also be due to the strength I gain from attending our weekly group therapy. This therapy is for parents of addicted loved ones. This morning, in the middle of fitness class, my instructor noticed me and said, “What is your name? I love your smile!” While I was doing the routine, I was either smiling or grimacing. For that hour, I felt relieved to be somewhere I didn’t have to think about Hawk’s case.


Holding Onto Hope: Prayers and Support During Rehab

Although Hawk will miss Thanksgiving and winter break with us, knowing the rehab facility plans holiday celebrations brings some comfort. I pray for peace, clarity, and strength for Hawk. I also pray for myself and our family. We need them as we walk this challenging journey together. It’s a reminder that in the middle of crisis, love and community remain our greatest anchors.

A family’s hands joined in prayer.

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Life Update: Beginning a New Chapter in Our Journey

Hello, and thank you for finding Fierceboy’s little corner of the internet.

It’s been a long stretch of silence here—over a year. The truth is, this path has been harder than I ever expected. For anyone who stumbles across this blog in the future, here’s where we are now: our son Hawk turned 18 earlier this year and is now in adult jail. We are facing the difficult realities of the adult criminal justice system alongside ADHD, substance abuse, and the ongoing fight for healing and hope.

I’m a 55-year-old mom, born and raised in Pennsylvania, now living in Florida. Music and pop culture have always been a large part of my life and have quietly helped carry me through tough days. My background in communications shapes how I tell our story here, hoping it can bring light to the challenges families face.

This blog started as a place to share our family’s struggles with ADHD and addiction. Now it’s evolving into a daily journal where I’ll write more frequently about our son’s court cases, the legal system’s impact on families, and the personal exhaustion that comes with it all. I plan to keep us anonymous for privacy, but my hope is to shed light on the challenges many families endure in silence.

Though this blog doesn’t have followers yet, my aim is to reach thousands eventually — parents, caregivers, and anyone touched by addiction, mental health struggles, and the justice system. To show that behind every case number is a family holding onto hope, wearing their pain on their sleeves, and searching for a way forward.

Thank you for stopping by. More updates are coming, and I hope you’ll find something here that speaks to your heart.

With fierce love and steady hope,
Fierceboy’s Mom